Something has to change and I think it is me.
I have to do something I haven't ever done.
I want to recondition my brain and my spirit. I want to wash out all of the bad influences in my life no matter how much it hurts. This means turning my back on my parents and the way I was raised and maybe some influences that currently are in my life.
So many things disappoint me today and it is because I have some sort of belief that my happiness is tied to the world around me and my ability or inability to affect it. I cannot. Besides, how can affect the world when my own attitude is shockingly negative?
It doesn't matter what is 'real' in the world it only matters what is going on inside of me and the only way that I can affect the world is if I have characteristics which are worthy of attention. So, the truth that I want to live for isn't a commentary on the state of the world but rather on the state of my inner joy.
Throughout history times have been rough for many different reasons. Times are rough in a persons own life regardless of the situation surrounding them. The future is often viewed from the lens of what one can expect from their own life going forward. So, no matter what situation the world is in, no matter what situation one is in, all that matters is the perspective of living for the future because that is all there is outside of the present moment.
The only thing the past teaches us is either we accept it, reject it, or decide to follow a new one. We either learn from the past and get better or keep on repeating the same mistakes. The only standard we have is our own and we can't deceive ourselves if we want to be better.
So, to take a glimpse into the past I realize that many of the attitudes that my parents had were unhealthy, negative, and quite honestly crippling in many ways. They were hard on people. They were very judgmental as I can be and I really want to leave that part of myself behind.
Everything is good even when it isn't. The light shines for those who look up. When you look down all you see is your shadow.
Being positive requires action. It requires movement and interaction with others. It requires that what I say to myself about myself is very important and to speak myself into power. What good does it do anyone to beat down on yourself? None.
Whatever I do it is imperative that I do it with joy and eagerness which is known as enthusiasm. Positively going into the day no matter what is really the only option because what does the alternative look like? Awful. Who wants to lead that kind of life? I don't.
So, I have to change my attitude when I am alone and no one is watching because it is nobody else's job to set me right. No matter how I feel I have to be active and positive in order to build a life worth living. When you are working towards a brighter future your todays become more purposeful and positive. This is why it is important to be on a mission which is several notches above goals. Goals are what you set as building blocks for the mission.
Domani never comes. There is no free beer tomorrow. Life isn't tomorrow. It is today and change is immediate or it is nothing at all.
The bright beautiful sky is shining over western Tennessee on the cold late November morning. I can see it, I can feel it, I can sense it in my bones because I am alive and that is exciting.
To have a beautiful life takes work and joy and nobody pays you extra to be miserable. There is no reward in it at all. You don't get medals for suffering. Nobody asks it of you and nobody wants it for you. The gift of positivity is something you give yourself and there is no other way to have a good life.